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Mending a broken heart.

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So, I was almost in a relationship. Or so I thought when suddenly, we had a fight. It started from a small matter brought up as a big thing. I guess I was too mad at him that I could not deal any longer such cancellations on me. Every time he cancelled out on me, I forgave him, and he did it again. One could not help but feeling as being taken an advantage of.

We have decided to stay apart from each others life. The discussions about marriage between us have been made previously. I guess it is true what they say, words doesn’t mean prospect. In this scenario, it is just words. Nothing else. I have always thought marriage is something beyond reachable, as it is way too good for me. I have thought about marriage, but I could not have imagine myself in a white gown with bridal flowers and a ring on my left finger anytime soon. Not because I wasn’t ready, but because it is so hard to find a man who can accept me the way I am. Most men I met wanted to change my life the way they want it to be. My guts a winner. The wedding is off.

Am I sad? Of course I am. His sentence of wanting me to be ‘accountable for my actions’ makes me feel as I’ve been punished by the person who claimed to love me. I would never make him taste his own medicine.

I want to fight this relationship so bad. Yet this is out of my hand. I could not do this alone.

Nevertheless, God is Most Merciful, He have reasons for His action. I will walk as high as possible living the life as I have always desire for. Love can knock in and it can fade away. In our case, the ego kicks in. Our “end” is not something I am proud of. It just stop with a simple message and a tense atmosphere, but hey, there’s always something to learn from a bad break up. I believe some good may come after bad occurrences 🙂

Please wish me luck in future endeavors and enduring the “break up”.

P/S: I’m in the process of buying a ticket to Bali, Indonesia for my birthday this coming January. What will be a better way than travelling to mend a broken heart 🙂 Lets do this!

 

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Written by jennastyles676

July 8, 2013 at 1:49 pm

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