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From heartbreak to enjoying the dating world â¤

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I went on dates. Plenty of dates and I’m still doing it now. But one morning I asked myself, why am I enjoying this so much when normal women my age would want true love? I keep on shifting from one man to another. Embracing my dates good or bad, exploring characters, and feeling amazing for being treated right.

  • Disclaimer; It took me years to crawl back in dating perfect strangers. It wasn’t something I enjoyed or find comfortable previously.

It hit me later that I had a sad relationship before. My past guy was a torment. I was never happy and never felt as I’ve been treated right. I cried so much in that relationship and invested my feelings wholeheartedly. I’ve always thought he was the one. I let the red flags slide and choose to follow my stubborn feelings.

I realised I wouldn’t want that again and I find solace in the dating world instead of the real one. Previously, I wanted a guy for the wrong reason. I want someone who I could share my heart, thoughts, and my deepest secrets with. But my ex boyfriend was always unavailable and there I was, dying to be taken care of, and trying my hardest to please him, and wanting attention. In the end, I have to deal with my own feelings and we were always not in a good term. Our final goodbye wasn’t a good one. He decided to be engaged with another woman.

I got crushed, my hearts tore apart but I decided, THIS should stop. He had taken too much space in my heart, my mind and energy so I’m taking it back.

After a while, the feeling fades. Instead of embracing our good memories, I could only remember the sorrow that I was in and I don’t ever want to go there again.

Call it a blessing in disguise, my heartbreak is my saviour. I took charge of my feelings and I no longer want attention or wanting to be dependant on a man. Whenever I’m bored, I will find something useful to do even in my own presence. If I needed the love, I’ll make sure I’ll get it from myself, family or bestfriends. I’m finally taking care of my own heart now. I am happier and that’s when I find myself soaking back into the dating world, and it is actually fun.

As of now, I am single, happy and ready to mingle. I learn so much from my past experience. Most women when dating a guy would easily see the guy as a potential and imagining a life with him. On that department, I am glad that I don’t see that with the men I’ve dated with. However, I’ve seen them as people I should sincerely get to know, and I embrace their presence. I do not have expectation of where the dating should be. Even when we don’t have chemistry, it is something understandable. I would not however, declined any relationship opportunity or destiny arised in the future if there’s ever chemistry / interest from both parties. I’m pretty flexible 😜

Regards,

Single girl living her life ❤

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May 31, 2017 at 6:20 am

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Embrace Emotions.

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Happy, sad, joyful, frustration.

Attached but detached. There yet not there.

All parts of human acts or emotions.

Embrace them.

As they let you learn and grow.

Everything should be taken at face value.

It is your best teacher and your best guru for the soul.

Protect them wisely M’Lady.

 

 

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September 23, 2016 at 9:10 pm

Today’s distraction.

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Hello Bloggers.

Today simple things bothered me.

1) I bought a used Fitness Tracker Watch from MisFit Flash and I couldn’t get inside the system as it is still linked to the previous user.

2) I bought another item, body measurement scale. It is rather expensive therefore, I expected my payment to pay off. Sadly, it does not function and I have to go back to the store tomorrow & asked for another one.

Usually I am calm & collected when errors occured. Today, I am impatient. I want results.

(Deep breath) Slow down Ainaa, one at a time…

P/S: I will be writing a review on the items purchased once I got all errors sorted out 🙂

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February 1, 2015 at 8:23 pm

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My house A MESS!

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My God, my house is a mess! What should I do?

I was on a long vacation. I was travelling for almost 3 months. I was in hurry back then knowing how messy my house was, but now that I’m back, it’s terrible! My brother didn’t help me with the housechores. Leaving me headache.

I have no choice but to start working next week. This week, it’s spring cleaning! I have to finish it on Sunday because starting Monday, I’ll be Mulan. Working my ass off at work.

So, which should I start?

1) Kitchen.

2) Rooms (I will leave my brother’s room alone. That’s too much to handle).

3) Living Room.

4) Toilet.

I am practically cleaning the whole house. Knackered.

You can do this Ainaa. Take a deep breath, and start your ass navigating your house! Sing and dance while doing it. Imagine you’re a Snow White, dancing with 7 dwarfs and singing to birds. Oh yes!

I’ll make my house a beautiful modern English country side look. Okay, let’s not be too over Ainaa. Let’s just start with a neat one first! 😋

 

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April 2, 2014 at 6:37 pm

I got myself a new baby kitten.

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They are times when I’m home alone, I feel lonely. I will watch tons of youtube videos, tv series, clean up the house or cooking. Recently, I watched a Malaysian actress who studied in the US and have two cats. Watching her cats and how happy they makes her feels, entice me to get one. I always love cats.

Since I have some downs in my life recently, with school, and heartbroken, I’ve make my decision to own one. After trillions of research, I finally found the perfect match!

It was the perfect kitten, meant and born for me. When I crossed over her face, it was love at first sight. I’m hooked!

Britney

Britney

 How adorable is she?! At first, I want to call her Maya. But after seeing her for the first time live, she reminds me of Britney. Very active, playful, and smart. She loves to run and slides. Lol. I got her vaccinated and deworm a day after.

I had her for a week now. Few days ago she started to loose her appetite and don’t even drink. My goodness, I was so worried. She had Royal Canin Persian 32 and suddenly she refuse to eat. I was thinking to bring her to the vet, in case she got dehydrated or sick. After many advices by friends, I decided to buy a new kitten food called Lams, some canned foods, and treats. Oh my, she loves it! My baby is eating so well now 🙂

Like a boss

Like a boss

 

Cuddling session

Cuddling session

 

She is a flatface white persian mix with bengal marble. Having to have a personality of a bengal like her mom, it was not as easy. I have to always have my eyes close so that she will not do something that will injured herself. It took her quite sometime to get used to me. By now, she started to lick and cuddles with me. Whenever she demands my attention, I’m all hers! :p

Having her makes me feel like the happiest woman on earth. It’s true what they said, animals makes a person feels content. Britney gives me unconditional love, and knowing that, makes my heart glows. Men comes and goes, but Britney stays.

This is love.

 

 

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January 9, 2014 at 8:47 pm

Losing 10 kg.

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Remember on my last post about being fit and healthy?

Ever since, I lose 10 kg! 🙂 *silly dance*

Well, it comes with the price though. I got bird flu, Influenza A so I’ve been admitted in hospital for almost a week, with another one week of quarantine. I am officially free from bird flu yesterday.

How to lose weight? I rarely consume rice. Trust me, it works.

However, there are more kgs to go. Pray hard for me 🙂

I am excited to lose more baby fats!

 

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December 19, 2013 at 10:13 am

The best revenge is to stay fit and healthy.

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Diet?

I am not a size 6. I am well, as people told me a “cute” woman. But lets cut the chase alright people? I am just fat, and I am not ashamed of it.

At first, I never bothered about my weight. For as I know of, I don’t have a boyfriend, I need to focus on my study so I allowed myself to eat luxury (as in large portion). I skip meals so when I eat, it’s for the whole day and usually at night. I am overweight too. In other words, I am not living a healthy life nor healthy.

I used to date guys before, and used to get…. well…. courted from random men whenever I go out. It’s not as many as before now, so the thrilled of flirting, I guess, kind of gone. As much as I believe I am pretty, it decreases my confidence level, at least almost a quarter of the percentage. I always want to look healthy and be pretty, and imagining myself in size 8 or 10 (I don’t want a size 6). I love playing with different types of fashion, hence my career involves around that. Being me, there are limitations in exploring fashion or choosing outfit. It has to be in accordance with the body. I get frustrated a lot, especially after going to the store trying to buy clothes and they either didn’t fit, or it just looks horrible on me for the extra kilos of fat circulating around my body.

Then one day, something happened.

1) I got dumped. Indirectly, by 2 men who used to one, love me, second, like me. Men are as usual, a visual person. I accept this fact and their decisions.

2) I feel tired all the time. Sometime I get sleepy although I have enough sleep. I got lazy too.

3) I followed an instagram of a lady by the name of netbasma. Oh lordy, i was inspired by her. She was fatter than me and she turned to be a very fit lady, classy and pretty all in once, after the weight lost.

Before:

Before

After:

After

4) It has always been my long life dream to be healthy. Not skinny, but healthy.

5) To wear a bikini, jumpsuit, simple top or short without having to be concern of all the fats.

So, I decided to change myself. I am not going for a drastic change, but I am going to phase I can follow. I cut eating rice now. Putting down that nasty carbohydrates of rice is, let me say it out loud, HARD. As a beginner, I trade rice with something else, for example noodles. It still have carbohydrates that human needs but it is not as much as rice. This has been my 7 days cutting off rice. How time flies. My diet plan, well is not as healthy yet. However, as of today, I tried my best to resist fats.

1st day: Fried beehoon for lunch. Maggi curry for dinner. A bit of late night unhealthy snacks :p

2nd day: Beehoon Soup for lunch. Bread with minched beef for dinner.

3rd day: Beehoon Soup for lunch. Assam Laksa for dinner.

4th day: Beehoon Soup for lunch.

5th day: Spaghetti Bolognese

6th day: Curry Ramen and Sukiyaki for dinner. 2 apples for late night snack.

LETS DO THIS AINAA! Inspiration body:

Drew Barrymore.

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December 6, 2013 at 9:56 pm